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Sekeliling

Assalamualaikum

Satu hidupan yang semestinya bukan homosapien
Bukanlah satu organisma
Mahupun hidupan imaginasi

Ianya realiti
Membusuk dalam diri
Membusukkan hati serta diri
Menghancur lumatkan iman
Semangat kerohanian
Serta lebih parah dan berdarah
Mematahkan perjuangan jihad
Walaupun sekecil-kecil jihad
Dan mampu menghumban diri
Ke dalam Neraka Jahannam
Naudzubillahiminzalik

Ia seharusnya diperangi
Aku pernah diajar,ia tidak boleh dimusnahkan
Mahupun dihancurkan
Akan tetapi,
Ia boleh dikawal
Dan seyogianya dikawal ketat

Tepuk dada tanya iman
Kadang ia tidak sihat
Serta terganggu gugat
Oleh sebab sekutu Syaitan tersebut
Yakni nafsu
Ya benar
Hawa nafsu

Kau tak boleh lihat benda hidup ini
Mahupun menyentuhnya
Atau lebih meroyan tahap infiniti,membelainya
Nafsu ini hidup dalam diri
Dan akan terus hidup
Sama ada secara liar
Atau pasif
Terpulang kepada diri masing-masing

Balik kepada diri aku sendiri juga
Bagaimana aku mengawalnya
Sekuat mana pertahanan aku

Namun bagi insan jelik ini,
Buk…

Eid Mubarak

Assalamualaikum

Wahai
Diri kerdil ini begitu keji
Sempena hari kemenangan kita
Aku minta maaf

Wahai
Aku tak pernah ingin
Walau seketika
Memutuskan pertalian darah kita
Sempena hubungan kita
Aku minta maaf

Wahai
Ayuh menyelam ke dasar akalku
Kita akan temui heterogen tangga
Menuju perubahan yang mungkin bagi kau holistik
Tapi bagi aku
Perubahan yang besar namun tidak membawa erti holistik

Aku juga tahu cara untuk senyum
Aku juga pernah senyum ikhlas
Kau tahu
Kalau aku pamer senyum tak ikhlas
Memang jelas sangat
Sampai diri sendiri pun rasa macam nak hempuk muka sendiri
Tapi
Tak mengapalah
Semua orang bukannya tahu apa yang ada dalam hati kita
Kita juga tak boleh nak duga jiwa orang

Wahai
Aku senyum ikhlas selama ini inshaAllah

Wahai
Datanglah ke mari
Walau seruan ini agak menggetarkan jika kalian turuti
Namun

Aku pun ingin seperti dulu
Muntahkan pelbagai celoteh
Bersama kalian semua

Selamat Hari Raya wahai sayang-sayangku sekalian
Di sini aku mengingatimu


The One That Got Away

Image
Assalamualaikum

Dear my love in the red suit
Now I'm missing you so much

The first stage of me without you
Was the hardest moment ever
Even though you were in my eyes
Lying in front of me
But I just couldn't talk to you anymore
You closed your eyes
And showed me signs that you didn't want me to approach you
And we knew
It would never be simple and easy
Never a clean-break
No one could save me
Except Allah

I tried to accept my loss
I tried to eat the faith
But we knew
I was on my way to eat some thorns
I had already lost you my dear

Allah took you away from me
For some reasons
For my own good
I'm very sure about this
But Ya Rabbi
I was too weak

Sometimes
In my old days
I told myself
I could never imagine what would it be
If I live a world without you
And now
I am living my life without you

I won't blame her for this
Because it wasn't her fault

The moment when she told me about us
Only Allah knew
That my heart was breaking
Slowly
And it was putting some pressure …

Extra-Ordinary

Assalamualaikum

This is the first for you
Yeah you

We met when everything was new in our life
We didn't know each other
And I guessed
My first class was your second

You were once a small guy
Kinda short
Skinny
But your face remains the same look
I could play back this one memory
The moment when you took your face to your left
And a little bit of your behind site
And your eyes were on me
Well I caught you
But your intention was to know your classmates
I guessed

We had our first year there
I seldom talked to you
Because I had no needs to do it

I was trapped in my own feelings
And he was in my mind
And I couldn't let him go away

Time flew
And we had our second and third year
At the same place

And today
Everything has changed
You are above me
And we seldom meet
Well that's okay
Because we have no needs to bump into each other

But then one day
Myself convinced me that
You were something
You were someone
That was too ridiculous
And ultimately wrong

Well
I'm sorry for falling…