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Short Story

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"I hate boys
Hate them all

They seem so violent
Would maul me with their stupid jokes and laughs

I just hate them
So much
Especially this one guy
Named Zeeq .

He thinks he is so damn hot
Handsome
Attractive
And whatever I hate him

And all of my juniors are like,
Crazy
Crazy over him

Chasing him everywhere he goes
Collecting his fallen hair
Trying to shine in front of his shining eyes
Duhhh .

They are weird creatures

And I've heard some of them cry because of him
Well heart-broken maybe
What do they see in him ?
Whar are those interesting things about this Zeeq anyway ?

Poor girls

**
"Hey Eddy,"

I look straight into his eyes

"Dude don't call me Eddy,I'm Edrina ..,"

He laughs

"You're on duty today,please sweep the floor,"

Yeah man
I have forgotten about it !

"Okay,thanks .."

Without further ado I take the broom and start doing my job
He has left
Lucky me

**
Sometimes I catch his eyes
Stealing peek at me whenever he turns his b…

Short Story

I got it all
I got what I needed

**
"Who's that girl ?"

Hmm

"I'm not so sure,maybe it's..June ? Jane?"

Renai kicked me
Auch it hurt

"What's wrong with you ?Girls aren't toys and you should know it !"

I laughed out loud
Well I couldn't careless
Girls were my favourite toys

Until one day
I tried to play with her heart

Renai,my best friend

**
"Renai,to be honest I like you so much,just please.."

She smirked

"Connor,I know you so well baby.."

I tried to chase her

"Renai,please I'm begging you,"

I grabbed her arm
Forcing her to stop
I looked straight into her blue eyes

Suddenly I felt something strange

"What,Connor ?"

"Trust me,I can take care of you more than he could ever do,"

She said nothing

**
Since then,everything seemed extremely awkward between the two of us
Renai and me

But I knew I just had to stay calm
And let the game begin

I wanted to know
Was it really hard to take her …

Trying

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Assalamualaikum

I don't have to be an angel in disguise
Or anyone in disguise
Don't need to hide yourself
Don't have to be scared to show off your own self

If people hate you for being you
Then let them be
You don't have the power to bring love into their hearts
Just let Allah handle it for you
Tawakkal,all you need to do is tawakkal

If people keep mauling you for being you
Drag your feet and run away
It's not because of your hatred towards them
But their hatred towards you yourself

Honey
It's okay

If you are acting as someone else
Then who is the one who will be going to be you,
If it is not you ?

People are different

And you yourself are one of a kind

Just be yourself
For the sake of Allah our Khaliq,
Try our best to be a good servant of Allah

This Ramadhan
Can be a good platform for us to change

Hey
Judge yourself

- Reminder for myself



Short Story

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I just liked to tease her
And looked straight into her eyes
They were sodden in tears

She was hurt

"Hey weirdo.."

Then I would laugh at her
Her big and thick black spectacles were tickling my stomach
I just couldn't stand it

As time passed

I didn't know why
But me and her,would never be seperated by time
Wherever I was,I would see her silhouette
And as usual
I would tease her and make her cry

As many years had passed

I didn't get the chance to see her anymore
I didn't know why
But . It was . Kinda . Sad .

**
Everyone liked her
Atirah,new staff
They said she was pretty
And was close to perfection
However to grab her heart was one daunting goal

Well
I couldn't careless
She meant nothing in my life

Because .
Everyday wasn't a complete day for me
Without missing her
That one nerdy girl
My nerdy girl

**
Was she trying to get my attention ?

"Ed you are so lucky !"
"She likes you bro !"

Huh
I didn't like her
So what ?
Yeah she was bea…

One Night

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Assalamualaikum

"Where's she ?"

"Who is she ?"

"The girl who sat beside you just now,"

I smiled
You did ask her,didn't you ?

And I guessed that night in the field
You were . Kind of searching for me

But hey

Why were you asking ?

And she actually meant nothing important to you back then

But hey

As time flies
And takes you away
And now everything feels kinda awkward

Admonish me
When I'm infatuated with your style
When I'm sinking in my own self
When I'm drowning in my own ambivalent feelings

Hah
It is very nice to write what I really feel
But I know
It is dangerous if I keep on thinking
And feeling this way

But
Just let me write



Well

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To know that I would wake up in the morning
Without having no more chance to see you there
My heart breaks a little

The moment you were working on your work
The moment when you helped me with those baskets
The moment when you asked me to give you a high-5

You are kind brotha
And may Allah bless you for the rest of your life

When we went to the Masjid
And at the end of the night you were waiting for me
Man I'm so blessed to have you

To know that you would be going so soon
I cried and my vision was blurred
I would always cry


Pft

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Well hey

Felt like I was drowning in the rain
The sky was dark
And seemed so creepy
But the struck reality was more tougher
I couldn't beat it

I fell on my knees
Sobbing
I had no idea when it stopped

Looking at you just tearing me apart
It is hard for me to walk away
But I just hate you so much
And what can I do to hate you more than to like you ?

You embodied something that was so beautiful back then
But today
It's different
No I'm not saying that you have changed into something hideous or etc
You are way more beautiful than yesterdays
But
I have no words to explain

I'm quite disappointed
I know I have no right to shape you
But .
It is just . Very disappointing
I'm sodden in tears

Will this sickest feeling be something that is pristine ?
I guess it won't

To run away from this state is something daunting
But I know I just have to face it
It is so foolish of me,to open up to you
Those three years were fine

Were utterly fine without you Zeeq
I was…

Pekak,Bisu dan Buta

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"Hayl kena ingat,cari isteri yang pekak,bisu dan buta,"

"Hah ? Kenapa,baba ?"

Baba tersenyum
Aku mula pening

"Bila Hayl besar,Hayl akan faham,"

**
Sekarang aku dah kerja
26 tahun
Setahun lewat
Kebanyakan kawan bujang aku dah tak jadi bujang
Aku aje yang tak berganjak
Asal ni weh ?

"Tapi mana ada orang nak kahwin dengan orang yang pekak,bisu dan buta,ummi,"

Aku merebahkan badan atas sofa
Sambil mata memanah wajah ummi

"Hmm entahlah Hayl,ummi pun tak faham apa maksud arwah baba,"

Aku mula resah

Pesan arwah abah sampai sekarang aku ingat
Sampai termimpi-mimpi pun ada sejak akhir ni
Mungkin ni petanda
Yang aku dah kena cari calon
Tapi aku takmau kahwin dengan,
Perempuan yang pekak
Bisu
Dan buta .
Huhuhu

Berhuhuhu lah aku sampai ke tua cenggini

**
"Baba kau pesan macam tu kat kau ?"

Aku angguk

"Wah,bagusnya baba kau,"

Aku menjongket kening

"Erm,memang aku tak nafikan arwah baba aku bagus,tapi,"
"Aku tak fa…

Suatu Masa

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Assalamualaikum

Aku saja je

Aku biasa perhatikan sekecil-kecil perkara tentang kau
Entahlah
Bagi aku,semua itu agak bermakna
Sekurang-kurangnya
Kau antara manusia yang pernah masuk ke dalam hidup aku
Tanpa kau sendiri sedar

Nak coret apa
Kalau terlalu teliti kang terbongkar
Tak mengapalah,bukan ada yang tahu

Macam ada spring di bawah kaki
Gaya kau berjalan seperti senior aku sedikit
Bahu kau biasalah
Tegak memanjang
Kadang rupa kau aku nampak macam budak
Tapi apabila kau menyedarkan kami tentang kecacatan kau yang satu itu
Kau nampak sedikit dewasa
Sedikit aja aihh

Gelak kau tak usah dipertikai
Kenal sangat
Entah aku rasa kau mula gelak seperti yang sedemikian,
Apabila kau 14
Aku rasalah

Stail kau
Cantiklah juga
Heh

Cara kau bertutur itu yang paling tak tertahan
Pandai kau berlawak ya kohkohkoh 
Kadang aku malas nak gelak
Kenapa,biar aku simpan sendiri

Maaflah
Aku suka perhatikan orang


Seriously ?

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Assalamualaikum
Dulu kau pun pernah tanyakan yang sama pada aku Aku senyum sahaja
Dulu kau macam terus menerpa Apa ? Haha kau dah kenapa ?
Ini merupakan salah satu renyukkan yang paling kuat Aku jatuh dari tingkat yang agak tinggi Daya impulsnya tinggi
Sakit Hahaha
Kini kau pun tanyakan yang sama pada dia Dia memang ok Tak terkesan walau sedikit pun
Walang rasanya
Sedih sekali 

Kawan

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Kitakan kawan

Tapi maaflah aku sendiri pun tak ingat
Bila kali terakhir aku jejakkan kaki ke rumah kau
Sedang waktu dulu kala,kalau boleh aku nak tinggal kat tepi rumah kau
Aku pun tak tahu bila
Kau ada rekodnya ?
Heh . Kau ingat aku lagi ?
Tentulah .

Aku tak tahu macam mana semuanya boleh,
Berubah,sebegini rupa
Entah mengapa satu masa itu
Aku jadi .
Kaku
Berhenti daripada berkunjung ke rumah kau
Kenapa, ya ?
Kau ada jawapannya ?
Heh . Aku tiada

Kau masih lagi seperti dulu
Aku juga masih sama apa

Dari dulu lagi aku tertanya-tanya
Apa yang ada dalam hati kau ya ?
Perihal aku
Kita
Dan ukhwah ini

Kau hargai aku sebagai seorang sahabat,
Atau tidak ?
Tapi aku rasa kau pasti akan
Ya kau pasti akan

Aku
Kalau boleh sekarang nak munculkan diri di hadapan kau
Namun
Mustahillah kan ?
Apa kau fikir aku ini Superman ?
Atau Powerpuff Girls ?
Atau Yaya ?
Atau siapa ?


Short Story

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"Do you hear me ? If you want her,then leave her,"

I could barely holding on
It was the most painful decision ever
But if I wanted her in the future,
I just had to leave her today

**
I saw her tears
But I forced my heart to stand tough

I ignored her
I didn't reply her messages
Didn't pick up her calls
And I knew
These doings were unfathomable

I just wanted her to know my real intention
But then my Ustaz said,if she was meant to be mine,
Then she would be mine

**
"Najdy,just tell me why?"
"Why you do this to me?You said that you want me,you like me,"
"But now ? What is going on with us ?Are you saying that you want to break up?"
"With me,Najdy ?!"

I nodded
While my chest was bearing a huge load
And I didn't know what was it

It was too,
Hard for me

"But why?You have found someone else ?"
"Who is much better than me?Tell me,Najdy,"
"Just tell me,"

Her big round eyes were glistening with tears
She …

Mann

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This is nothing but something
But kind of useless
But hey

Let me tell you something

You're like something that I can see with my eyes
But you are an opaque one
So I can't see through you
And I can't know your true colour

You're like something that I can see with my eyes
But it feels like you aren't needed in my life
But when you are far away from me
And it's hard to reach you
I start to feel something

Hey
When I fight the urge to reach you through the world
When I often open your account just to see when is your last time in the world
You are something
Not just something that I can see with my eyes


Gawat

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Tell me how to mingle around
Tell me how to talk nicely and politely
Tell me how to fill up their hearts
With manners and good disposition
Tell me how to show 'em
That I love 'em

Just tell me how to do
All of those things

Help me
Remind me

To control my tongue
To change the way I speak
The way I smile
The way I behave
The way I sit down when there's nothing left to do

Hey
You can't force me to be the one that you want everyone to be
I'm just me myself
Yes you can ask me to change those bad habits
But when it comes to the way I smile
And sit
And talk
Babe,

A leopard cannot change its spots
Well so do I



DIAM

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"Weh dah tak reti jalan elok-elok?"
" *ayat sinis* "
"HAHAHA kau ni tak layak nak jadi ketua,blah!"

Kata-kata nista berlegar di ruang udara
Menyapa elok gegendang telinga
Terasa bagai kulit disiat-siat
Hati sudah lama lebur

Makin walang rasa hati
Apabila yang terdekat tidak cuba untuk memahami
Apatah lagi yang jauh , tapi tak semestinya

Allah
Menggelegak darah ini

Baru ingin membuka mulut
Ops !

Bang
So Ba Ro bang

Memang susah
Susah sekali untuk pupuk diri bersabar setiap kali marah
Sakit hati dan sebagainya

Tapi .
Cubalah .
Kau kena cuba
Kita semua sama-sama kena cuba

SO BA RO

Indah sekali jika kesabaran kita tebal tahap tak akan koyak
Indah sekali jika kesabaran kita kerana mengikut Rasulullah SAW
Double triple indah tahap infiniti,
Jika kesabaran ini kerana Allah SWT dan RasulNya

Kalau terasa nak balas balik dengan das yang lebih kaw
Tutup mulut cepat-cepat .
Ingat,bila marah,
Diam itu lebih baik

Apa ?
Diam

If You Don't Know

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At first,everything seemed so fine
She loved me
And I loved her
And there was nothing in front of us
There was nothing,that could block our way

But then everything started to change
She told me she was busy with her assignments
Okay,I would step back and let her work

When it was weekend
I tried to ask her out
Just like what we used to do when we had no classes
But she refused to go with me
She said she needed to take care of her best friend
Yuun was having a fever
Okay,I would step back and let her be

I could simply assume that
Everything was broken right now
And here I was
Standing in front of her house in the rain
Trying to talk to her

"Yes,Luke ?Whaddaya want ?"

She asked me

"Erm..we..well.,I.."

I couldn't talk properly,as I was freezing to death

"Don't waste my time Luke,I've a lot of work to do just please,"

I forced myself to say those words

"Nayla,what's wrong with us ?"

She was puzzled with my question

"Well,I guess …

Short Story

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He looked at me
And I noticed his eyes
My knees were trembling
I could hear my own heart beat
Duhh it was hard for me to hold back this feeling

"You do like him,don't you ?"
"Just admit it,Ruhiel !"

My friends liked to tease me
My cheeks were flushed
Still,my heart was beating rapidly

**
I saw him there
As I was on my way to the lab
Again,he was looking at me
While talking to his friends

"Hey Ruhiel,he's looking at you !"
"He likes you Ruhiel !"
"Ruhiel,I'm so happy for you!"

I guessed
I didn't have anything to say
As I was drowning in his eyes
And in my own feeling

**

"Erm,hey Ruhiel,I'm Zeeq,"

He smiled at me
That one charming smile
Was burning this iceberg

I melted

"Emm,hey,Zeeq.."

Since then
We became friends

I didn't know why
But he had the magic
He could make me smile all the way home
And I couldn't help myself
I kept thinking of him
Every second in my whole life

I knew
I had fallen…

When I Was

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I used to go to Wan's house
Even though it had no Astro and air-conds
But it had you,Wan

I loved it when the ground was hit by rains
The smell of the lashing rain was good
And the backyard will hold some water
And I would have this kind of feeling of wanting to jump out of the window
And swam like nothing

When it was night
We would sleep in the living room
In front of the TV
And sometimes mosquitoes would have my ears as their shelter
Not a permanent one

And then when it was morning
The sun shone like those stars at night
And you would buy me Nasi Lemak
Or Mee,maybe ?
And then sometimes you would help me to eat it
Thanks Wan

And when I was bored
I just let myself laying in front of the TV
And watched anything that I guessed I didn't want to watch
Well,I had no other choices

When my mom came and asked me to come home
I would hold my tears
And my chest was in pain
I didn't want to go
But I just had to
As I needed to go to school on the next day

Wan
May you ha…

Crash

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Well
It is like . I don't know
But right now,
This sickest thing is flowing in my soul
And sometimes it kills me
As I walk through those words
And dive inside those speeches and talks

Sometimes
It feels like I'm driving insanely
On an endless road
Is it ?

Did she just give me a sign ?
Telling me that you want to keep her ?
Did she ?

Did she just give me a punch ?
Telling me to back of ?
Did she ?

Answer me

Nahh,you don't even know I'm asking

It feels like the ball
When you kicked it
With all of your heart
And the crowd went wild
If it was alive,the pain would have been killing it

It is painful
Just painful enough
If I keep playing with myself
And with this sickest thing


Yesterday

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So yesterday is someone's day

So I would like to wish you a happy day
Since it was your birthday

I'm so sorry
Because I couldn't be the first one
To wish you happy birthday
And also,I couldn't be the last one
To say those words

Alhamdulillah I thank Allah
For giving me the chance to have you as my best friend
And also,
For letting me know you
For letting me hug you
And laugh with you
And make fun of you
And pull your legs
And others .

Hey my deskmate
Ex-bedmate
Ex-dormmate
My classmate

I remember
Every year,when it was 10th of September
You would try your best to make it special for me
You've never failed to make me smile and feel extra happy
To receive lots of gifts from you

Every year,babe
It's every year

I'm sorry
I couldn't make you feel special 
As I didn't have anything to give to you
But I had me myself
And trying my best to stick close to you
To be by your side
To be your best friend
Was my gift I guessed

Sorry for this late post