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Epiphany 2#

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Assalamualaikum The way we mouthed our names, It sounded like you needed me for a second, And for hours the things you said kept on replaying in my mind. The red stain was already gone. I finally could feel all normal, all me again. You were still so beautiful it blinded my eyes. The times apart had done you so well. It showed how much better you turned out to be, Without me. You were still so amazing and it took my breath away. The distance between us had shaped you so perfect you're shining brighter, Than all of the smiles you'd shown me before. And suddenly Justin Timberlake's songs sounded good. You were still so far away from me. And it made me realize that all of the good qualities you have are actually blinding me, From seeing the truth that you did never need me to tell you, That you are good enough. That you did so well, you tried your best. And sometimes people can be so cruel but that's how real life is, mate. And I, Never had the

Sentuhan

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Assalamualaikum They said no matter how close you are with that person, Sooner or later they will leave you. They said it monotonously, It's like they're so sure of that principle. Like their hearts have been broken millions of times that they no longer have trust. I felt something was off. I told myself I needed to be myself just for a while. But that was a crap talk. I was always myself with them. I was always at my best around them. They were my sunshine, my source of energy. I'd like to believe they were actually the ones I could call home. The ones who could give me comfort in my rainy days. Sometimes I wanted to run away, But the thought of having no one that would chase after me stopped me. I hated this. I sounded so selfish. The world doesn't revolve around me. I know. Being selfish only feels good for a second. But that one second is actually something sweet but a pain in the chest. It sucks in every bit of oxygen you need to breathe.

Vanilla Twilight

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Assalamualaikum I would always find myself thinking about you unconsciously, The second I opened my eyes, my head was already full of you. Every time I happened to see those dark blue rides, And those in caps. Thinking about you made me feel warm. But I shivered in coldness knowing that you were away, And I was never in your sight. Your common name that until today I don't know how to spell, Didn't really hit me in the chest. But the vision of your chin and its sideline, And your mysterious eyes. Sometimes I wished to stay there a little bit longer.

Epiphany

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Assalamualaikum There's a lot in my head. Like the smile you gave me in those days, It seemed sincere, and I wanted to tell you, You looked cute when you smiled me that smile. And those shirts you were in, I liked to make myself notice every single thing about you. Like the way you walked ahead of me, And how your voice sounded so distinct. I liked it. And the way I cried and the pain felt so real, My heart was actually aching so loud I squeezed my chest hard. And how you took your spring steps so fast I couldn't catch up. The way I hurt you. The days you told me it was okay. Those times when we made time for each other. You told me things about the world around you, And I enjoyed listening to every bit of you. But today everything is different. I could only see fragments of whatever is left of you in my head. And I have finally forgotten how your voice sounds. It is sad to think that we have become strangers.

You

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Assalamualaikum Let me see you again, in my daylights and moonlights, Like how it used to be, Remember? Let's take an early morning walk, again. Breathing in the cold fresh air, while admiring your gaze towards those flowers. I have always told you, everything about you is beautiful. Remember? Let me take trains with you again, to somewhere I'll take you as my lead, Tell me anywhere you want to go, and this time, I'll be with you. I will, be there for you.  Let's sit on the red chair once again.  If it is late at night this time I won't talk about my sleep.  Tell me anything about you. How your day was. Your struggles on the day. Your restless rest in the evening.  This time I'll listen.  Let's eat nasi goreng kampung and telur mata once again. This time it's my treat.  Anything. Please let me see you once again. And smile me that smile I've been missing.  Come back to me. 

F4 - For You

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Assalamualaikum I'll take you to my favourite bakery in town, And have you to take two out of the four egg tarts which I usually buy only for myself, And let you say anything about those of my favourite, And for you I'm willing to listen. And hey, I'll drive you to your favourite spot in town, And buy you any other caps that suit you, Or if I'm rich enough I'd buy the whole store for you, Because everything looks good on you believe me, And for you I'm willing to like them. I'll pick for you any football jerseys including those out of this town, And not that I mind if you keep wearing the yellow and the red one, But I like it best if you're in that light blue, And for you I'll leave it only here.

Forgetful

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Assalamualaikum I think I need to, Forget those eyes, Sparkling, Which never met mine. I think I need to, Forget those smiles, Breathtaking, Which never meant for me. I think I need to, Forget those of you, Beautiful, Who never walked this way. - beautiful stranger, from experience, meant for nobody, inspired by somebody

Meteor Garden

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Assalamualaikum Your face seemed so clear in my head. You came to me last night, And being in my dream, I knew this had become a little too much. I guess I just wanted to run away from my reality, I wanted time to heal me without taking too much of itself. You get me? It had always been like this. I thought I was freeing myself. But I was only stepping into another cage. Once again I was tied up. And time by time it was harder for me to let go. But I believe I was being sincere towards you. You are really, kind. And captivating, Just the way you are. The fact that I really like to write about you until today, Just like that your traces are going to be kept. It's okay. You'd take another ride, And I'd try to not take another look, And months will pass by, I won't look for you anymore.