ThirTeen

Assalamualaikum I wrote your name on the red book, Months hadn't passed, I praised myself for forgetting it. But never did I forget, The smiles you gave me in those evenings. I remember the smell of the rain, And the beat of my heart, Was it because of the incident? Or was it because of this one anticipation, That has sat in my heart since that day? The black rubber shoes you wore, And the reminiscing of my old days, Yesterdays I saw you in one of those pictures she took, Your sport shoes were in blue and I tell you now they are good, As good as your manner, As fine as the whole of you. I thank you for your kindness, And the golden experience. And in those rainy evenings, I felt a little glad, to have met you in that special way. You were here to teach me lessons, And I know I couldn't ask for more reasons, I know :)

Assalamualaikum So I heard that you're hurt, That's why things were a little hard between me and her, You brought your wound for it to be healed, To another person and it was no longer me. So I saw you linger around her heart, Waiting for the only owner to open up, You found another safe haven, Until today I could see you and your best stay. So I heard you're finally fine, Sometimes I noticed myself thinking what it could be, But I'm now more than glad that us was never a reality, So thank you for the bitter sweet memory.

Assalamualaikum Those people that you thought have hurt you, And left you long enough, I can never feel the exact thing you've told me before, And I can never know how were the days when you're with them, And I don't think any sides are for me to take. But if you feel suffocated, leave it for yourself, Decide what is next for yourself, for only you know you. Not everyone will know your worth. Most of them weren't there when I thought I just saw an angel smile at me. They never knew how it felt to have you as a warm company during those cold nights. They never saw you went all crazy just to make me laugh after those tiring cries. They, never know you for who you really are. And because of that, they don't really know how to cherish you. Is that okay? Well, I can't answer this on your behalf. It is up to you, Only you can live your life, for yourself, For those around you, For your creator, who has always been loving you for who you are.

Assalamualaikum I have been lying to myself for so long, Until the reality struck me in the heart, Once again I found myself bleeding, You know, the same old wound. I ended up salting it for how many times I lost my count. I lost myself, When it was you. I told her I laughed thinking about our old days, But the truth was the opposite. I wished I could sleep off the present days, And forget about everything. Everything that was you. Last night I dreamt about you. I hate the fact that talking to you could actually make my day, No matter how down I am feeling, only a few lines from you could make me smile all the way home. I hate the fact that you're my magician, You were and still are.

Assalamualaikum I miss you. You're the best, for making time for me even though you're busy. Even though you're not doing so well but those open arms, And the warmth of your sweet smile, I wish I could see you now and cry my eyes out beside you. No one can beat you, you're one in a million, And amazingly irreplaceable. Those wise sayings, and the way you tried to help me see the truth, It's hurtful for not being able to look into your eyes while knowing you listen, While knowing you're trying to always be there for me. I'm so fortunate to have you, and know you. So lucky to be able to love and be loved by such a sweet soul. So blessed to know people like you actually exist and he's here. So close but so far away.

Assalamualaikum Did you know how beautiful your eyes were, When they stared at mine, Along with those small talks and stories we shared, Slowly, I watched the brown colour fade away. So did the awe it left. I liked to look at you from afar, You'd walk with confidence, But in my arms you'd melt with insecurities, Saying you're such a mess I'd then say you're the perfect kind of mess, My kind of mess. Slowly, I let you go far away from me, remember all those nice words you once heard me whispered, Those were the last. I loved the times we were together, No sunrise and sunset, Just you and me, and the feelings we now had lost. I was proud of you, and proud of myself for loving you. Proud of us, we made this far. "You're my all and more, All I know you taught me, You're my all and more, But I need room to breathe," - Lauv, Breathe

Assalamualaikum Hey, shorten the distance, be closer. Not to feel the vibration, just enough if I could see you from there. If I could know how you're doing, right now. Is this what they said so close but so far away? Sometimes you came into my mind, I still looked for you on the road, Even though I knew it would take some unicorns and mermaids, For you to suddenly show up there. Does that mean you're more magical than them? You're beyond that. You'd be looking nice in those adidas and nike jerseys. Along with those sport shoes, Just give me a smile and there you go, Flawless like yesterdays. Flawless, just like always. I think it would be hard for you to understand me. But it would be great if you're willing to try. It would be hard for us to have synchronised steps. But it would be amazing if we open up and change the angle to the one that fits us. Talking about you could always make the sunshine stay, The rainbow wave, The sad and col