TS - august

 Assalamualaikum

Starting over means writing a new page, without you. 

And today it pains to think about the unknown future,

That I hope I'd still be able to write your name,

Beside mine. Like how it used to be. 

Going to the cleaned places from my past,

All I could ever think of was you.

You're miles away. But enjoying the desserts and nice foods,

I felt worse for thinking of you and how nice would it be,

If I could see you sitting in front of me once again,

With your cap on, and you, different from any other usual days. 

I couldn't seem to let you go.

The memories you gave were poison, but they tasted so sweet I became addicted. 

I didn't know what to do, until today. 

When at nights I still wanted to talk to you after my busy days,

I still wanted to wait for you, and wondered about you. 

I still hoped it was you, asking me things about life. 

When I still wanted to care for you. Every single day. 

I didn't know what it meant to have you close to me,

And I didn't even want to understand it. 

I just wanted you, to me, for me, all of you, only for me. 

And it would only prove that it was only a burning desire of this world.