TS - Cornelia Street, Live

Assalamualaikum

The room was dark as the main lights were off,
You curled up on the cold floor, eating blueberry cheesecake,
And I saw a canned drink, and another good friend beside you.
She said you broke your heart, liking someone who happened to fall for your best friend.

I felt the tightness of this chest, feeling devastated as I was never told about this before,
How you were eyeing on him when we did spend days together, not to forget in the airless van, you stood so tall yet just a year of differences, now you're saying you had feelings for him. 
Well, I was surprised but, if that was what you felt, then it's okay. 

You looked so weak, and I wanted to taste the cake. But I had to give you some me-time to feel okay again. 

"I move on so fast,"

It's true. The next day you woke up feeling stronger than ever, and ever since that day, you never looked at him the same. I was happy to see you were sleepy again in the class, and couldn't care less if you fell asleep in front of him. 

But then one day you were smiling so wide exchanging letters with the one I adored, he told you you looked cute with that one rare look, I had no clues but I caught up fast. It wasn't okay, but I couldn't tell you to stop. You were holding the melted yogurt, I didn't have things to say, and the normal days went by just like that. 

"I would never believe him ever again,"

Now you hate it when I told you about them. It's good to know you're doing okay, just a bit lonely (lol). But it's okay. You have toughened up and train yourself well. I'm happy for you and am doing okay as well, just missing you a little bit too much. 


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