Heartbeat (in draft)

Assalamualaikum

You need to know that I like sweets with no specific flavours.
There would come a day where you'd see me chasing chocolate van,
And the next time you came to me with a box of chocolates I would be refusing them.

You need to know that I'm just shy, not avoiding people who want to talk to me.
Some people can see me through while some think I'm too dark to understand.
But one thing for sure you can learn me from the way I talk to you because what you see is what I am. I tried my best to be real with you and never wanted to go around making up lies and excuses.

You need to know that I like to talk things out with you.
Because I'd like to know things that made you.

And you need to know.
That I need you to be honest and clear with your feelings.
No more hide and seek.
No more days to show.


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