ThirTeen

 Assalamualaikum "Allah's plan is always better ," I stumbled upon this quote this morning.  Usually, I'd tell myself "Yes, it is.", And scrolled more without having a second thought on the message. But this morning, the air was unusually cold.  My thought sent me back to the past.  People will try to understand, and my loved ones I guess do understand. But no one can feel it as deeply as I do.  No one has ever felt it, more than I did. I felt you in those beautiful months.  And my dear, please know I cherished you and you're my most precious prize possession.  And a part of me was taken away, as you went away too soon.  I moved on through the days without you, and tears dried up, little by little, time by time, with you on my mind.  And today I came across the quote.  It kills me every time I see someone in your age.  Hoping I'd get to see you run around and hug my legs with your warm little hands.  Wishing I'd get to see my m...

 Assalamualaikum It's been a while since my last writing.  I like the idea of vanishing into thin air; Where specific targeted people I hope would search for me.  And I hope for them to feel what it's like when I'm gone.  And I hope it's painful.  Sometimes I like to indulge in the feeling of being forgotten, Or left behind.  When I lay low in the bed alone, hoping for the time to tick faster, Just to feel your presence that I've always longed for. Thrice or more times I told you I am no longer your drive, And what it is there that keeps you from me.  I adore your commitment, but I need more time with you, from you.  So I always hope you'll listen to me for the rest of your life.  I can no longer eat spicy food.  I taught my brother to be stronger and that food is tasteless without its spices,  But now we both can no longer skip meals and love samyang.  All my life, Allah always gets me through everything.  Alhamdulillah l...