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Assalamualaikum

You were so nice and sweet.
It's like shinjuku with many strawberries on top of it,
You added more berries in blue,
And I'd refuse the liquid caramel,
With unwavering love towards that dear shinjuku.

It's a festive time. And your sweet face along with that beautiful smile showed up.
You were so young and beautiful. Always giving out to people your rays of light,
And those veins overwhelmed with love.
It's a festive time, and sometimes I'd hope to see you there.

I like your name, and my voice saying it inside my heart.
I like your voice, you don't need to sing a song.
I like your company, and this is me telling you I'm sorry for pushing you away.

"I hope the next time we meet we won't be awkward anymore,"

Your wish seemed so sincere, and I had always hoped for another meetup,
Without a sense of awkwardness, but I am sorry for this is how I am.
You always managed to break the ice in me, but I am sorry for how stupid I was on that day,
It's like I could still see your wounded heart bleed with disappointment.

Every person I've known for some time holds a special place in my heart. It's never out of space. In the future I will meet many more, and they will have their own too.

You have always been so special to me, and you're second to none for your sweetness and sincerity.
Thank you for being so generous, giving me your heart while ignoring the coldness all around me. Thank you for being so kind, giving me your all while ignoring the emptiness lying deep inside these eyes. Thank you, for hoping that you could see me again, with a smile on my face, telling you to sit here beside me and talk about things.


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