M5 - Memories
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I have always thought of myself, as someone who always loves harder and more.
And appreciates her friends.
I really liked to be with my friends when I was younger. Every day I waited for morning to come, skipping breakfast or just pushed in down the throat, whatever that was on the dining table, and met my friends. I wrote about them in my diaries, how I wanted them to be a part of my family, and how I wanted to be a part of their family.
I had been dying to grow up and finally drive a car, pick them up and we go to the mall together. And we're going to have meals while facing one another. I had a lot of best friends. Someone once said to me I didn't really have best friends, because everyone was my best friends.
They matter so much to me in different ways. And they each holds one exclusive place in my life. Every single of them.
I get so attached and it was easy for me to fall. Remember the times I followed you around? At first it was because I was alone in that hostel. But as we went on, I found myself sticking to you because I like it. I like to see you as a good friend. And I have always liked to be seen as one, too.
But we are all different. We have our own ideas and thoughts. And we perceive things differently. Even identical twins won't think of most things the same.
It always saddens me to think that my friends won't see me the way I see them. I am always afraid of rejections, especially from you guys. I have always wanted to try my best to be the best in your eyes, and sometimes I think I did try so hard.
But now I think I need to accept that, some might not see me as a worthy friend. And some might not see me as a friend. And some might want to keep me because they think I could do good for them. And some might want to eat with me not because I am a friend. I need to accept that, not everyone will like me. Well, not that I am in everyone's favour.
Orang cakap kawan biar berpada. Tapi kadang limitasi aku kabur. Kadang aku sanggup lompat jauh, kadang tak pun. Maaflah aku selalu tulis macam aku baik, kan? Tak pun. hihi :)
I have always thought of myself, as someone who always loves harder and more.
And appreciates her friends.
I really liked to be with my friends when I was younger. Every day I waited for morning to come, skipping breakfast or just pushed in down the throat, whatever that was on the dining table, and met my friends. I wrote about them in my diaries, how I wanted them to be a part of my family, and how I wanted to be a part of their family.
I had been dying to grow up and finally drive a car, pick them up and we go to the mall together. And we're going to have meals while facing one another. I had a lot of best friends. Someone once said to me I didn't really have best friends, because everyone was my best friends.
They matter so much to me in different ways. And they each holds one exclusive place in my life. Every single of them.
I get so attached and it was easy for me to fall. Remember the times I followed you around? At first it was because I was alone in that hostel. But as we went on, I found myself sticking to you because I like it. I like to see you as a good friend. And I have always liked to be seen as one, too.
But we are all different. We have our own ideas and thoughts. And we perceive things differently. Even identical twins won't think of most things the same.
It always saddens me to think that my friends won't see me the way I see them. I am always afraid of rejections, especially from you guys. I have always wanted to try my best to be the best in your eyes, and sometimes I think I did try so hard.
But now I think I need to accept that, some might not see me as a worthy friend. And some might not see me as a friend. And some might want to keep me because they think I could do good for them. And some might want to eat with me not because I am a friend. I need to accept that, not everyone will like me. Well, not that I am in everyone's favour.
Orang cakap kawan biar berpada. Tapi kadang limitasi aku kabur. Kadang aku sanggup lompat jauh, kadang tak pun. Maaflah aku selalu tulis macam aku baik, kan? Tak pun. hihi :)
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