TS - Long Gone and Moved On

Assalamualaikum

I would still follow the traces of the footsteps you left,

With this pair of old sneakers, and the realisation of you being long gone,

And moved on. I could feel you were tired and worn out,

Never thought I'd be the one to cause this sorrow of my own.

I would need to remind myself over and over again that you were no longer there.

With your pretty smiles that sometimes seemed insincere, that I'd always loved to look at.

The hard smile which crooked your forehead a little, and that new glasses you had.

You were running with new steps and breaths, 

Away from the pasts, away from the stories that once held you back.

I would need to stop seeing the flashes of your sweet face.

When you were laughing and making jokes that sometimes were hard to understand,

That I'd always loved to hear and took a few seconds to laugh because they were all funny.

You made it feel good to have you around me, to have you brought me to places and life experiences, 

Where I'd told myself I was the first to be there. Let me think this way even if it's wrong.

But I guess I shouldn't do this any longer. 

I would desperately need to not be affected by the sound of your voice,

And each time your resemblance came around.

I knew you'd always cared, and you would no longer do so. 

It was the very painful reminder, that they had always told me about,

That I had lost my grip on you, and everything we used to do.

But it was okay.