TS - august

Assalamualaikum

It was a pleasure talking to you.

The years I spent with you stuck on my mind,

We talked a little about the surfaces of life,

I wanted more and you were impatient. 

And it made me wonder why did you give up like it didn't matter. 

But your shadow had me wrapped around it.

Your resemblances were everywhere,

And it was a lie each time I told my friends you're deeply cursed in this heart. 

I waited for you like when I was 13. It was suffocating. 

But every time you came by I thought it was worthy.

The presence of you got me electrified,

The sun rays judged me through the smile.

You could be the sole reason for me to lose sanity.

And that was how meaningful you were to me. 

I could give you as many chances if you wanted. 

I saw us in distorted portraits, and I'd still give you the key to my door.

And you were in for days now. 

But I bet you felt it too. You couldn't find what you're searching for. 

It might be there when you were young. Now it's been years and we had shifted for so many times. 

You couldn't deny the changes we made, to no longer fit in the puzzle from the past. You could no longer find it inside me. And I had lost you for so many times I would never need you anymore. 

Just like last month, you left. Everything was blurry, and you never replied. 

But it was like the default of you. It once hurt me bad, but today I could smile a thin line. 

Sometimes I hoped you would never come back. 

And sometimes I hoped I could erase your trace each time I saw you in my frame.