ThirTeen

Assalamualaikum I didn't know what I should do with you, But it felt easier when you're not around. Sometimes I wanted to talk to you, Telling you how my days were, Making stupid jokes that weren't funny, Sensing your fake laugh through that long haha. I wasn't that funny, huh? I couldn't see you in my dreams anymore these days, It might be because my sleeping schedule is a whole mess, And I didn't think about you as much as before. It felt good. Sometimes I did wonder about you, But something about it had changed. That was the moment I knew. It felt easier now that I could let you go.

Assalamualaikum The sound of trains and luggage tyres, You waited for the eyes to meet, Expressing feelings and confusion inside. I could see you beside the convenient store, Trying so hard not to be bothered by your presence. Your bones broke, the lungs were struck by your ribcage. Your people told me something about you had changed, You became colder. The crowd didn't stop me from noticing you, in that black shirt. You smiled. I told you to come with me, You waited for these eyes to meet yours, once again. They tried hard to run away from your gaze. You fell into pieces. Your people told me to be gone. The times you wanted these eyes to be honest, I hoped for you to understand. But you clearly didn't want to. And that was the end. - 7 Minutes

Assalamualaikum It might be the pictures of you she showed to the world, And it might be the useless regret I still could bear in this chest. Or it might be, The truth about us I'd been trying to hide. I could feel you so close to me. We talked non-stop about everything and anything. I felt so comfortable around you, Yellow and orange painted the canvas, Our names were written on it. I found it to be strange, But it was you and me, in my dream. I found it to be strange, But it was just a dream.

Assalamualaikum 5 Seconds of Summer - Outer Space; "I guess I was running from something, I was running back to you," The trees and clouds above, I could draw your long fingers, Telling me how deep you felt, how thankful you were to me, For some slideshows. Trace back your steps on the ground at one night, I couldn't say much, I was comfortable being in silence, Watching you stand in front of me, I never dreamt of it. But somehow today it feels like a dream I tried to bury deep, When at nights it is all I think about. Yesterday I wrote things on the note, Feeling sorry for the things I did to you, And how much I wanted to go back to the past, Just to show you my sincerity, If that could make you stay. No matter how many times I told myself to move forward, It seems to me that you're always there, haunting me. I really wanted to be the one you need by your side. But I guess that our grip on us was too loose we let it slip away. How could yo

Assalamualaikum Won't you answer me? I really like the way how gentle you were, and how nice your words were, to me. And I'm sorry, for letting all of those go to waste. It was awful of me, For being so negligent. I'm terribly sorry. You were such a nice person. I didn't know how you pictured me in those times, But in my mind, I could clearly remember you in that red suit, most of Tuesdays, And how you would react every time the distance between us was shortened.  It was selfish of me to say these, But I have always liked to talk to you. Sometimes you were funny, Most of the time you were the sweetest. So when it crumbles down, put all the blame on me. I admit it's my fault. I knew you needed time. And you didn't need me to tell you this. You might need me to disappear, and never come back. Once again I'm sorry for being selfish, Would you answer me?