5SOS - The Girl Who Cried Wolf

Assalamualaikum

The years with you were the best. It felt like I had the world in my hand. 
Seeing you looked so alive with those big brown eyes, and long eyelashes.
They loved those glares and stares. And I had always loved your laugh, it sounded cheeky and naughty. 
I almost swore to myself I would never let you go. I almost believed you were meant for me, and forever had always been for us. 

I could still recall the feeling of your palms. And the smell of your clothes. And the moments I felt you were different. I had always wanted to ask you some honest questions, and I thought I could die the second you told me another lie. Were those all simple lies to save yourself? To save us a fight. Or, you uttered the truths, and what I felt was wrong. 

I wanted to cut open your chest. But I guess after years, it didn't matter anymore. Last night you told me you missed us. It sounded like you needed me by your side. It's been years between us. Didn't you miss me the first year I was nowhere near? Had you never wondered what went wrong the first two years we're gone? I thought a lot about us, but it was only for a day. I moved along and was fine, until today. 

It's been years I wasn't included in your group. But I was okay. It's been years you went out with your friends and I was home. But I was okay. I didn't want to call it an end. It just happened. It's been years. And I did just fine. 


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