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I Like Me Better

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Assalamualaikum I think you'll never know how much you mean to me. All the times we spent together, Since the first day I saw you, I couldn't really explain them. To you. To anyone. Even to myself. They weren't flawless, we kept on making mistakes. And I kept on feeding my ridiculous ego, But until today we're doing good. They weren't the number one on my head. But a year without you I couldn't really be myself, And be at ease seeing you around but not by my side. I think I'll never know how much you mean to me. It felt like all the things we'd been talking and discussing, All the days and nights I spent with you, They were the ones who build me up until today. And I will keep on changing, hope for the better one inshaallah, But the traces you left behind I promise you they're going to stay, Within me. And the love I have for you. I think no one will ever, discover, how much you mean to me. You're so meaningful. Nothin

Hey 3#

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Assalamualaikum It's not the fact that you're beautiful, Nor those of you that linger on my mind, It's just the way you think about the others, And how you tried to help ease my burden. It's in the way you treat people, and how considerate you are, Setting me at awe. It's the way you act around me, And the distance you keep in mind. I can't say much, not that I've been knowing you years ago. But I wish to see more, And to feel more, Trying to figure out who you are, and where do you come from. I bet it's going to be exciting.

Hey 2#

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Assalamualaikum To make it special, I'll place one Ferrero Rocher in your paper bag, Even though when we look back at it, nothing was barely there, It's okay, you won't notice, but I'd like you to know you're not like the rest. To make it more special, I'd want to fold an S sized white Vans nicely, And buy you a bigger and sweeter paper bag, with no feelings written on it, But I must be crazy, and rich enough to do that, My friend said don't lose control so I won't. Bet you'd be looking so good in it. To make it safer, I'll just put another chocolate in that small paper bag, I bought it in white instead of White Vans, No matter how much I think of this, it won't fit, Even though your dazzling smile sometimes comes in my dreams, I should keep myself safe. To make it safer, Let it be this simple.

Short Story

"Manchester, you?" "Indianapolis," I had always liked him in light blue. He's not fair, nor dark. But the tone was just nice with that favourite colour of mine. The first time we met, when I walked into that gift shop. And he was the cashier. The first time I looked at him, there's something attractive. Soon I realised he had such a dazzling smile. And such pinkish nails, and beautiful fingers. Day by day we exchanged smiles. Soon I knew he lived nearby. Soon we exchanged numbers, and cups of coffee. In a blink of an eye, we became friends. Little did I know, he brought sunshine into my life. Years of friendship, he had always been there for me. One day I was locked out of my hostel, he came to keep me accompany until the next morning. When I forgot to bring along my purse, he came by just to pay for me. Lately I'd been thinking, what would I be without him? "What would I be without you?" He showed me magic when he smiled that smi

Cuti

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Assalamualaikum Ah pulang dari bercuti, buat aku rasa sedikit kosong dan sedih. Bukan, ianya bukan tentang langkawi, bukan tentang berapa banyak manisan serta coklat mampu aku beli. Bukan tentang material. Semuanya alhamdulillah baik. Namun ianya tentang rasa, yang sengaja aku pendam sebelum aku berhenti kerja lagi. Aku dapat agak, atas katil dengan muka sunburn pasti aku teringatkan along. Along yang bribu batu jauhnya dari jasad aku. Dari bilik aku. Dari meja tempat dia berdota. Dari kancil tempat dia meluah rasa. Aku rindu along. Aku dapat bayang, atas katil dengan mata yang sembap, dan muka yang masih sunburn, Aku teringatkan cik ani nasi kerabu. Dari kalutnya pagi aku, betapa inginnya aku datang awal setiap pagi. Aku rindu suasana kerja di sana, walau hanya part time. Tapi serasa semuanya sangat sebati dengan diri aku. Aku rindu nak gelak bila Kak Iza buat lawak. Aku rindu nak borak kecil-kecilan dengan Lysa. Aku rindu nak dengan suara Kak Nur suruh aku makan kuih y

It'll Be Alright

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Assalamualaikum "What does it mean to like someone?" Have you found your answer? Whenever she feels down, words and plans are all running in your mind. You try your very best, do whatever you can, Just so she could smile again, And you could be at ease knowing she's fine. It's just a simple thing, but you don't want her to be hurt even by a thorn. Whatever it is, you just want to know she's doing fine. You wish every happiness for her. You want every goodness in this world, For her. Day by day some things become a little bit harder, You're running out of alphabets, last minute plans won't work, But when it comes to her, All of the words and the things she's in need of come out smoothly from your lips, And gestures, and every bit of you, You said even if you couldn't help with solutions, At least you're there, for her. At least she knows she's not alone, You're going to always be there for her. You want to

Hey

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Assalamualaikum Hey, don't make me just a fragment of your memories, When you're a whole of mine. Don't let the sparkles of dust I leave fade away, Keep them close to you, Even if one day they slowly won't resemble me anymore. Don't let the short moments affect you, You can dream some more in the daylight, Let it be years or decades, Make believe everything that I've been hoping to be true. I will keep on running my eyes on the road, Looking for the one who has your eyes, And same smile as yours, While admiring your pretty fingers forever. If one day I find you again, Let me see the ghost of me in you, Not shattered glasses of moments we once shared. - blue eyes, black jeans

Hey

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Assalamualaikum I've been looking forward to see you every day. And day by day, it's fun to look for the things that made you you. Like the curve of your lips when you smile, While enjoying the sound of your laugh, I notice your eyes are light brown. I think I can never get used to the fact how beautiful you are, since the first day we met. Sitting near you and talk about things, While looking straight at the scenery coloured by the highway in front of us, Your jokes make me run out of breath, you're funny and that's a new thing about you I've discovered. When the time gets rough on us, It's amazing how you could handle me well when I couldn't control myself. And it's weird, just by looking at you I got this one sensation that feels like cold breeze washing away all the madness I've been feeling. And by looking at you, I feel safe. You calm me down, in a way I couldn't really describe. I have such a great time with you, And i

Stay

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Assalamualaikum I need you to stay, here. With me, and promise you'll never leave. Even when sometimes we couldn't understand each other, Even when sometimes I build up walls while you stay silent, Even when we have nothing to offer, to each other, Do stay, and don't drive away. I don't mean to say you're someone easy, But anytime you want someone as a company, I'll try to be it. Any day you want someone to share some fancy stuffs, I'll try to be it. Any night you want someone to stay close to you, I'll try to be anything you need. I'll try. And will always do. I want to know all of the reasons behind your smiles and tears, I don't have the ability to cure you or any words that can comfort you, These days have made me thinking that I'm worthless but, I want to be able, at least, to make you feel you are not alone. It's not that I think you need me, or want you to see it that way, It's not you, but it's me. It